Sept 29

Yesterday I mentioned that I sometimes forget things. On Friday I forgot I had made an appointment with someone for acupuncture. Whoops! We rescheduled for today. After the appointment I felt so much better. The nausea was gone and I felt safe to drive home. I'm still a little skeptical. How is it that needles stuck into the skin can make a person feel better? I don't understand it. I do know that I'll be looking into my insurance to see if they can help cover some costs.

Sept 28

There are a few things that I still don't understand about cancer. One example would be why do I have Fred? Why is it that healthy cells decide they need to mutate into something abnormal and life threatening. It just doesn't make any sense. My silver lining in all of this is that I have an excuse for the rest of my life. "I'm a quart low" and then fill in the blank of whatever I either forgot or didn't do correctly. It drives Derek crazy. Love you honey.

Sept 26

Most of you already know that I was diagnosed with a brain tumor back in April 2008. Lucky for me it was in the (right frontal lobe) part of my noodle I apparently didn't use. The surgeon was able to remove a golf ball size amount. While I waited for the blank spot in my cranium to fill in I discovered the true meaning of brain farts. It was so weird. I was given quite a bit of vicadin, morphine, and perkaset. I do not like these drugs. They don't agree with me. The surgery went well and I quickly switched my pain medication over to Extra Strength Tylenol. As a side note I named my tumor "Fred". In future blogs I may refer to "Fred". Not to worry I haven't gone crazy. In naming this thing before I knew what it was helped me to deal with the unknown and my fear of what my future may be.

The first portion of my treatment plan involved 7 weeks of radiation and 42 days of chemo. It wasn't the highlight of my life. If there is a silver lining I am skinny ... Finally! I lost my hair in the area's I received radiation. I wear scarves and hats while I wait out the re-grow period. The portion of the treatment plan I'm currently in is chemo. I'll take it 5 days a month for 1 to 2 years. I've completed the first 3 months.

I'm still able to do all of the things I did before, but in much shorter intervals. I am allowed to drive. Like everything else I don't usually do things when I'm having a good day. I did not realize the enormity of the support I had. I have been overwhelmed by the love and support from family and friends. It changed my attitude from despair to hope.

My days now consist of recovery. Resting, and when needed, napping. When I'm not taking my chemo I feel like everyday gets better. I am entertained by my cat and dog most of the time. I would love to hear from you if you would like to call me. I will pick up the phone if I'm feeling well.

Live your days to the fullest!
All my best.